You guys, I am going to serve a mission! I can't believe this is happening. I'm still in shock that I am able to right now. I'm excited, nervous, anxious, and ready. But mostly excited! Something that I realized recently is the fact that I was (and still am) exactly 19 years old when President Monson announced that sister missionaries could serve when they are 19. I wasn't 18, I wasn't 20, but I was 19! I felt as though the prophet was giving me permission to go now instead of 3 years from now. Goodness, it still makes me tear up. I remember watching general conference at Chrissy and Jeremy's house and hearing President Monson say, "Today, I'm pleased to announce that able, worthy young women who have the desire to serve may be recommended for missionary service beginning at age 19, instead of age 21." That's when the waterworks started. I just started balling at Chrissy's kitchen table. THAT'S ME! I have never felt the Spirit stronger than I did at that time. I was overcome with so much pure joy. I can't even describe it. My whole life I've received feelings and nudges (some that made me stop in my tracks) that I needed to and was going to serve a mission. Every time I saw sister missionaries as a kid, my heart felt like it was going to explode. I have a couple journal entries that I wrote when I was younger about it. I've also had prompting upon prompting since the announcement that going on a mission right now is the right thing for me to do.
To tell you the truth, my excitement is overwhelming at times. I just want to go out there right now, whether it be in Pocatello, Idaho or Concepcion, Chile. But don't get me wrong, I know that it is going to be the hardest thing I've ever done. Ever. Ever ever. I just need to keep reminding myself to enjoy the moment. Enjoy the here and now. In fact! I just got two new callings. I am a ward missionary and FHE coordinator. I'm going to try to magnify those callings instead of somewhat ignoring them like I have done with some callings. Oops.
I'm going to the doctor this week, and then I'll be able to meet with Bishop Rand and President Challis. Then I should be good to send in my papers! I'm hoping to be done with this in the next few weeks!
I'll keep y'all posted--